i was loving the idea of a few hours with only one kid. i was making lists of chores i'd get done, projects to do with brynlee, thirty-one work that would get accomplished. and let me tell you, the tears of that first day, NOTHING got accomplished.
i woke up with the alarm clock that morning...never happens...and fletcher was already awake. he wanted to get dressed right away and put his new 'tool' shoes on. after trying to redirect him a few times to eat breakfast first, i finally agreed. after getting dressed, breakfast eaten and cleaned up, teeth brushed, i was sitting there with time to kill and thinking that 'this is really hard on me'. i had walked away from little boy's excitement a few times because i had to hide my tears. i didn't want him to see me crying. what if his mood changed because of me? i put my big jackie o's on a good 5 minutes before walking out the door.
i took pictures of his first day of school. some ridiculous ones, but precious to this momma. i won't get that day back. there are a few things that i would have done differently if i knew i was going to be such a sap, but in the end, i'm happy how that morning went. i am happy to report that there have been zero tears from me or little boy since that morning of the first day of school. he's singing songs and making projects and today, he wants 'to go on a bear hunt.'